My blog's sooner or later gonna be a very quiet and peaceful web.. which nobody would care to visit here. and i tink its e best time to write something out which not suppose to be written.. as i told myself. I guess gonna scribble my blog abt some uncomfortable feelings .. hopefully may help mi feel more comfortable by saying it out.. read at your own risk btw.. but i'm not gonna flame on anyone except myself.. it can either be a touching stories or not, its juz my feelings. :) i dunnoe wad i done wrong to this world but i always so unlucky especially about bgr.. bgr can be a very sweet and happy moments for everyone but as for me, its always a envy, depress, hurting or jealously feelings i got. but why?! but i really wish i could really have someone which i really love and able to care and concern about her alot. The person i always love, always can be the person that hurts and created sparks in my heart.. c0s i think its a always, cant get rid off, the person i love always have another crush more deeper in her heart den me alot. i guess? for those ppl who had e same feelings bef0re, u shld know this feeling sucks. and i notice something, sometime e one i love, always tend to ignore me? i dunnoe.. and of c0s i know wad it means. simple, no feelings on e person. or might think he's irritating. Acturally i'm quite easy to addicted on somebody. But i'm always addicted on the wrong person which already had a crush.. oh god damn? I've ever tried putting alot efforts and concern abt someone but end up she got another guy. this is totally fucked up. i told myself not to love anyone else but. each day passed by, seems that all my gd buddy already had attached.. During cny visiting, my aunt ask "hi tg happy new yr, wah u have grown taller! Got girl friend already isit?" and not to tell lies and replied " Haha thanks. Nah.. i don't have.... " and for some reason they said " Really don't have anot, don't bluff " ...

Maybe its fate.. fate to be unlucky. i oso don't force ppl to like me.. juz really hope that i could really concern and care.. chat.. etc.. for my crush. If she's really got some feelings about me, i would be very grateful to heard that. but thats rather impossible to happen. All the bad things i expected all happen, while all e good ones were nvr happen .. wat the hack is this? Haiz. Really juz hope that i could really have a girlfren beside me. concerning me.. joke with me.. cry with me.. but that's only able to happen in my dreams? the way i talked above.. guess everyone shld know i already had a crush.. but who??? guess yourself.. wan clue? try asking me if u really intent to know. if not, go away. h0pefully she's realli g0t at least 1% of feelings about me, i won't mind and would be joy to core.

hopefully then.....
i'll be waiting... till i dies?